It's Cynthia Here.

Best friends. Promises. Bullshit.

I guess this is it. We are no longer friends. We don’t talk, you’ve moved on. And that promise you made? Never kept. I suggest you don’t make promises in future if don’t intend keep them.

We went through ups and downs, we had a lot in common, maybe that was the problem, we weren’t “Yin and Yang”. The more I look back on the past, the more I wonder. Were we ever best friends? Or was it just a label?

1. Your best friend should be somebody that you can trust one hundred percent. You should be able to confide in them knowing that they will not spread your news to other people.  I thought I could, evidently not.
2. All of us have stages of our life when we really need a friend. We may be in trouble, we may have done a terrible deed, what we require in this situation is somebody to support us, listen to our problems, offer advice, possibly a room to spend the night but most of all not to judge us. A best friend will offer all of these things, without hesitation. No, you were always too caught up in your own stuff to consider me. No matter how I felt, or what was happening, I tried, put on a smile, and encouraged you. Yet you never did the same.
3. We all need somebody to be able to phone from time to time, just for a chat, somebody who will make us laugh and ultimately happy. We all need to have the odd night out, perhaps at the cinema, perhaps to go for a drink or perhaps to go to the theatre. A best friend will be the person to call and will make time for us in these situations. The first person you call during troubles would be the person you most trust to encourage you, make you happy, sort out problems. I was never it. In fact, I never received any calls, I never had a chance to be that ‘best friend’, and don’t say the others were ‘just there’  because YOU picked up the phone, YOU chose the number to dial.
4. You should be able to trust them with your life. Can I?

I could go on an on and on, and say no and question when? to each one.

• A best friend is not only someone you have a good time with, it is also someone you believe you can trust your life with.
• A best friend is the first person you call when the most amazing things happen in your life, and when the most horrific incidents happen.
• A best friend is the person you will always remember no matter what comes about.
• A best friend is almost like real family, a best friend gives the opinion you usually care most about.
• A best friend is the one who tells you the things you absolutely need to hear regardless of whether you want to hear it or not.
• A best friend is the person you usually can be around always and never get sick of.
• A best friend is someone you don’t envy, and is the person you are grateful to have as a friend.
• A best friend is the one who will forgive you always, even when you’ve screwed up so bad.
• A best friend is the one who even though you may have drifted apart from, when the time comes for them to hug you or congratulate you on an accomplishment or to console you on a loss.. they are the number one person you want to see, always because they are the person you’ve confided the most in and they are the person who knows you the best .. even when you both have changed.

Now we’ve drifted, even further apart than yesterday, so far that I’m sure this gap will never be closed, just get further apart. I’m just sick of it. In the past, I’ve tried to close this gap, and successfully every time. But I’m sick of it, why must I be the only one to make an effort? Would you ever make an effort? The last time you said you were sorry and promised to be a better friend. When was this promise suppossed to be put into play?